The Waiting Game

Is there anything worse than just waiting around for something to happen? Waiting in line, being on hold on the phone, waiting to get back an urgent email, waiting for surgery, waiting to hear back from a school you applied to, waiting for test results, etc.

Waiting has been my life recently and let me tell you, it's the worst. I would rather know than have to wait to know. Even if the thing to know is bad. I would rather know than be anticipating the outcome. At least then you could have a reaction or plan.

But waiting... there can be no plan of action. The plan is to wait. And if I am waiting, I start planning for every possible outcome in my head and what I am going to personally do. But, my actual actions are paralyzed. I cannot act on what I do not know. So instead, I sit and prepare (really panic) in my mind.

Yea, the waiting game is most definitely not a game.